Please dont grow too fast.

Last week Lester and I went on our yearly vacation but I have to be honest, I enjoyed it so much but I missed my kiddos too.

On my first day back I had a blast but I couldn't help but think,man they grew so much in one week....?

The best part of my job is that I get to see sweet little faces every day. I get to see them grow and learn, explore and do new things on a daily basis.
Something I look forward to with my own kids.

But in one week, honestly, such a short time how can they grow so fast?
Their little legs and arms were longer. Their torso was leaner and my chubby baby cheeks seem to be disappearing.
How can this happen so fast... and does it happen each and every week?

Man it can be... and I'm not even mentioning their mental growth.

I know is a part of life, I know they'll grow each day but it seems more obvious once we are not there to see it.
Which leads me to a bigger dilema...

My kids, my future kids, will the grow this fast?
Or faster as time seems to go by faster and faster as the years pass by?

It just makes me wonder will I blink and have a 5 year faster than I can say goodnight baby?

I know it doesn't happen that fast but life gets busier and I don't want to miss a thing. I desperately hope to be the mom who is always there. The mom that one day will take her 5 year old and rock him or her to sleep just because I can.

The mom that wakes up early to feed her 16 year old breakfast just to enjoy the family time.

But most importantly I hope to one day be the parents that say we didn't miss a thing. We were there. We say it all. We EJOYED it all. Each an every second with them.

Because I know one day our sweet baby boy won't want mommy to hold his hand or our sweet baby girl will be a teenager and won't want to spend every second of her day with mommy or by that means daddy.

So baby E don't grow too fast... Please oh please let mama and papa enjoy you, every second of you, every inch of you and when your older let me kiss you 100 times again. Let papa swing you in his arms again and let us tell you 1000 times a day " I love you to the moon and back" with it ever embarrassing you.

Letter to baby E: abuelito don efra

Written January 14


Almost 6 years ago I met an amazing man...
A man called Efrain  more known as Don Efra.
This man loved to make everyone laugh. He loved to dance. He loved to tell jokes and he loved sweets.

My first time meeting him is lost in my memories but I remember thinking of him as a serious man. To my surprise he was nothing like that....

He was your great-grandfather.

A man that I loved and still love very very much.

A man that just the simple thought of him makes me laugh and cry the same time.

A man that showed me how to dance... A dance that almost left both us in the floor but a dance that is now the subject of many belly laughs

A man that man that one day took my by the hand and asked me to call him grandpa.This is and forever will be my most beautiful memory of him....

Your daddy and I had just gotten married and he sat next to me, grabbed my hand and said " so sweety what are you going to call me?" me being the shy person that I was back then (nowhere to be found now) turned red faster than I could describe and he caress my hand and told me the following, something that stayed in my heart and will always will. He told me "you have to call me grandpa" that made my day. It made my month....

From that day one my love for him grew more and more. Its very hard to describe but the way he was made it so easy to love him..

He always had great stories to tell.... and lets not talk about the jokes... He spent the whole time making us laugh. I dont remember a time where we sat at the table and we didnt laugh.

He love your daddy very, very much.....

But today, today January 14, 2014 he has gone to a better place..

It bring tears to my eyes as he was such , such a great man and my heart desired so much for you to have met him. I know he would have been an amazing great grandfather.

I promise to tell you all about him.. To tell you how much we love him and how much he desired to meet you. How frenquetly he asked about you and how many times he expressed his love for you.

Baby E today he has left this earth but not our heart and you will hear us talking about him so much as he was and still is a great grandpa to you papa and myself, a great dad to you abuelo and abuela and a great husband to your great grandmother.....

The pictures not taken

Every once in a while I find myself wishing we had a camera at all times... Well not at ALL times but a camera that will always be there to catch the beautiful moments in life that more than often we forget.

Just a couple of days ago I had one of those moments where I wish I could have a camera and take a picture of us, Lester and I. Not our face, not our clothes, nor hair or shoes but the moment itself. The moment that my husband and I share a long kiss while dancing barefoot in the kitchen to a Christmas song..

No reason at all... He came over while I was washing the dishes swept me off my feet and started dancing. This is what i live for. Those times in life where the moment itself can take your breath away.

Where a moment like this can stay in your mind for days.

Moments like these I long to remember when instead of a few white hairs I'll be dealing with a few black strand in a head full of grey. Moments like these I hope that my children remember and visualize a love so big that words are not needed. Moments like these I want to remember when things are not as sweet and dandy as I wish they were but more importantly I want my kids to see us and remember us as the parents that found whatever reason to love on each other and enjoy every second of their day as it was their last.

More than anything I pray that one day when our children are older and get married I hope that they find a love as greatest, as amazing and beautiful as we, their parents, have for one another. I pray that you , our lovely little blessings find your mama and papa cheesy but  secretly have the same hope for your marriage. 

The reason behind the blog

So I tried this before... yes the whole blog thing, a couple of times I would say, but I never stick to it ( not to say that I will stick to it now) but I will certainly try to do my best as the time that we so anxiously have waited for is coming closer and closer.

What time may that be?

THE TIME WHERE WE START TRYING TO CONCEIVE.

I have always dreamt of how this would  all work out. How long would it take.How we would find out. Will it be immediate or would it take us a couple of weeks to find out and that is only the beginning of my question list, but taking out all the worries and unanswered question things are about to get crazy excited in the Estrada household.

So I would say this is the perfect time to start a blog.... To document everything that our life is about now but also start to write sweet letters to our baby E. To document the changes, the new beginnings and most importantly to document this big adventure that we are about to embark on.

I've had this blog for about two months now and I had decided it to keep it private but after a couple of talks with the hubby we've decide it to make it a public thing so here we go!

I'm very excited to say the least about this new adventure, about writing and remembering everything 20 years form now so I hope you join us in this journey.

Don't promise you anything fancy, fun, or daily post but I do promise simplicity, Saturdays at home and lots of sweet words.